seriously feeling like the most disgusting, nasty creature to walk the earth. i can’t stand looking at myself anymore. i just feel fat and hideous. i’m tired of eating. i’m tired of trying to hide all of this from everyone around but i really don’t know what to do. but really who would want to associate themselves with me. the only reason i ever eat anymore is because people are around me. but i feel so disgusting every time i eat and the only thing i want to do is throw up. i hate myself.